ok ok, just yesterday, i was in my room reading a book called The Golden Compass, pretyt good too, ne wayz, at the corner of my room i started to hear a "tappedy tappedy tappedy tap tap tappedy tappedy tap tap tap tap appedy" so on...ne who, it was like a person taping on a desk or table wid their fingers...so ive heard this sound b4 and took no mind to it, i had figured b4 and at the moment that it was just the house moving...in....w/e way it moves. but those few other times i had been occupied wid music or about to fall asleep, this time it was bothering me so from my book! then, my heart starts to pound, my imagination takes over, my yrs of experiance in knoing that all is not as it seems...i think What is this noise? There is no wind? House movements dont cause taping!!! so i experimented *grins* a started tapping on my wall also and the tapping continued wid me, then eventually it paused and so did i, then it went "tap tap" and i went, "tap tap" then there was a pause, then it went "tap" and i went, "tap" and then it went "tappedy tap tap tap tappedy" in a pattern, so i follow, and so on, wid brief pauses in between, i wasnt scaared i eventually started liking "communicating" lol or w/e ne wayz ventually i had to stop my cat from eating up my art book, lol and i heard one last "tap" and then it stopped im guessing cause i didnt follow...oh well, weird story, thought id mention it, id type more but...umm the cat is in front of y.....*gets annoyed* OW CLAWS.............grr byes..

ok, first things first, 2day! i swallowed a jolly rancher! (the hard ones) WHOLE! it hurt going down for a full 10 mins i believe! ph34r d4 p41n!!! *sniffles* lol umm...*coughs* have i mentioned ive been told im weird? lol ne wayz..on another bad note, it's bac to school! *GASP* NOOO *sighs* also...i virus somehow got onto my bros comp (the on im using currently...er..well most of the time) and he had to clean out the whole C drive. BIG MISTAKE............well on my part, i should've saved all my files. *clears throat* i had collected over 400 of the best i could find of anime. the time, the searching for hours that i would go thro to find new, and inspiring pics that i had never seen b4. the collection! *sniffles* so many, beautiful picz! alll gone now...one a bright side..i can have fun looking for them all over again! ^-^ *eh heh....*pouts* even worse, my stories, my inspiration, my creativity, my TO BE NOVELS! were, sadely, deleted. Some of my finest written yet. *pouts* and for some, strange, unknown reason, it doesnt affect me that much, if u told me a month ago, i would go, NOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOOO FOR GOD'S SAKE NOOOOOO DEAR GOD NOOOOOO I SPENT HOURS, HOURS, RACKING MY BRAIN, THOSE WERE STORIES THAT COULD ONLY BE WRITTEN ONCE! AND THEY'RE NEVER, NEVER, COMING BAC. *falls to ground in tears, pulls hair* yes...hmm i wonder wat's happening to my emotions and feelings, who will help me find them? or r they gone 4ever? it seems more often i have to search for wat im thinking.....but one thing i kno for sure, is that my love for the people closet to me, will never be lost and i will hold onto it with all my inner strenght. hopefully, that will save me from the nothing that is my thoughts.....(i wonder how i come up wid this stuff when supposidly i think of nothing?) oh yes! then there is still hope! ^-^ im stil here! *eh heh....oh well, im prob being over-dramatic, have a nice day! l8z! ^-^

y i am up so early, in this hour when every other (normal ^-~) teen sleeps, is besides me....ahhhh my eyes hurt, specially my neck and the back of my ear for some odd reason...school is tomorrow, ending my "life" as i kno it....eek...im starting to feel so empty...like there's no one inside this shell, this mold...so early, wat will i do? no one to talk to, just the hmmmm of the comp...and a bleeping noise i heard in the distance (wat is it....?) and also the me typing....ooo and i think i can faintly hear the furnace...i can feel the fact that many others sleep! especially all of my friends. *groans*